A new journey...

Ever since I graduated from college, I've slowly, and without realizing it, become depressed, tired all the time, lonely, and truly uninterested in life. I wore a mask to cover up how much I was hurting because I've learned not to depend on others. My mom passed away suddenly 18 months ago and it made it all worse. I've struggled to find a new normal and to figure out who I am when I'm truly on my own. It's been very tough and I still struggle at times. My hours at work have increased without realizing it because I don't want to be home alone. Some nights I have activities and meetings: Girl Scouts and church mainly. When I do get home at night, I barely have energy to make sure the pets are cared for and grab a bite to eat for dinner before I'm crawling into bed. Just to repeat it all the next day. Weekends were scout events, errands, maybe a few house chores if I really felt like it. I've slowly realized that I haven't really truly enjoyed the things I do for a long time. I've started a few new changes and hoping they make a difference for the positive. One of those is that this week I will be starting the Thrive program. I should have my first shipment tomorrow night so I'll officially start Tuesday morning. This blog is to document my journey and to keep me accountable in keeping track of how Thrive affects me and how I'm feeling each day. I'm hoping that this will help me gain the energy back to feel like I want to do something and not just HAVE to do something.